No Strings Attached

Posted By Kathleen David on March 29, 2021

There are going to be some delicate subjects today so tread carefully.

On Facebook I have been talking to my friends about the feelings of hope we are getting now and the joy of doing or planning something normal.

It is like we have had our heads down for a year and now are starting to feel like we can un-crouch and make plans again.

There is still a worry that something is going to happen, and we are back to the crouch.

I am going to hold on to the hope. It feels bright and shiny.

Someone else described it as, “It feels like an evil fog that has invaded the land is lifting.”

It doesn’t mean we go back to how it was right now. Personally, I don’t believe we ever really will considering what we have /are all gone/going through.

We cannot back off on masking, washing our hands, and social distance.

It would be horrible to be so close and then blow it because of selfish people.

I cannot believe I am saying this again. A miscarriage is a loss of a child. Don’t tell people just to get over it because it was a miscarriage. Let them grieve in their own way.

Loss is loss no matter what the circumstance. 

I grieved the loss of my job when I got downsized from Del Rey. I grieved for friends I have lost. I grieve for opportunities I have lost. And I grieved for my miscarriage.

Don’t let others tell you when you should and shouldn’t grieve. It is a personally matter.

I cry when I am mad. I always have. It is my release when I cannot do anything else. When I was a child, this was looked on by my peers as a weakness they could exploit. What they didn’t understand is I was not sad but very angry and I knew hitting people was wrong as was screaming. They are tears of sheer frustration. Caroline does the same thing.

The lists this week have helpful. I have been able to work through them and feel a sense of accomplishment.

I plan on continuing that system since it is working.

Today Caroline and I are going through her clothing to donate things to Big Brother/Big Sister and knock her room into shape.

Tomorrow I have work in the early morning then whatever I can get done during the day.

That will be my schedule until Friday.

I am grateful for shifts at work.

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