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MMHCI We are grieving for our losses

Posted By on August 17, 2020

Yesterday was a meeting of an art salon we talked about how we were dealing with going into the fifth month of isolation.

The general consensus to my ear is that we are surviving but not thriving.

One friend is dealing with serious grief fatigue due to her role as caregiver and other things that are outside the isolation of our lives. 

I am grieving for many things that I cannot do nor may not be able do for a very long while. 

I miss conventions. I missed the energy of them. I got a creative boost from attending. I miss my friends and my convention family. I miss the silly things that happen which become running gags throughout the years. I miss the income we earned at them a lot.

I miss the gym. I miss being able to run through a routine and the feeling afterwards.

I miss bowling a lot. I miss my league and my friends there.

I miss going to the movie theater and watching the latest blockbuster on the large screen.

I do have somethings back like the ability to go to the fabric store, but I feel like I am in a crouch every time I go out in public.

I am tired of feeling this way and it is wearing me down.

I know I am luckier than many but that does not make my grief any less or invalid. 

I am going to let myself grieve for what was and will never be again.

I am grateful for my friends helping to give me clarity.


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