No Strings Attached

Posted By Kathleen David on August 6, 2020

My favorite song in the Steven Universe Oeuvre of songs is entitled “Here Comes a Thought” written by the show’s creator Rebecca. Sugar.

It is a song about intrusive thoughts and how they can take up residence in one’s brain, but they don’t need to. 

 Take a moment to think of just
Flexibility, love, and trust
Take a moment to think of just
Flexibility, love, and trust

Here comes a thought
That might alarm you
What someone said
And how it harmed you
Something you did
That failed to be charming
Things that you said are
Suddenly swarming and, oh

You’re losing sight
You’re losing touch
All these little things seem to matter so much
That they confuse you
That I might lose you

Take a moment remind yourself to
Take a moment and find yourself
Take a moment to ask yourself if
This is how we fall apart?

But it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not
It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay
You’ve got nothing, got nothing, got nothing, got nothing to fear
I’m here, I’m here, I’m here

Copyright Rebecca Sugar all rights reserved

Yesterday I got another chunk of the big cleaning project done and figured out how I am going to do the next one. I can see how this is all going to go together until I can get to the next bit. 

I want to get this done so I can get back to puppet building. 

I am behind on what was my timetable, but this needs to be done. 

Being an adult can be really hard and I hit the ‘I don’t wanna’ stage a couple of weeks ago. But I talked myself into continuing to be an adult with the promise of comic books and other fun things when I am done.

I am proud that I am napping less these days which says that I am getting enough sleep at night. I like getting enough sleep.

There is also the ‘F’ it’ feeling that I am trying to avoid. Throwing in the towel is not an option right now. 

Intrusive thoughts are a pain to deal with, but they can be. I learned all kinds of coping mechanisms to deal with negative dangerous thoughts and I think that has kept me on this planet.

I have been thinking about that a lot. Of those times I was so down I really thought that death was a good out from the pain I was feeling at the time. And that it is get better for me. Maybe not immediately but I am in a good place now. I have a loving husband when once I thought I was unlovable to anyone outside my family. I have Caroline who is a miracle on so many levels when I once thought I would never have children. I am doing things I love. I have friends that I love dearly. I have family in my corner. I am in a good place.

Doesn’t mean that those intrusive thoughts don’t lurk in the background however I think that happens to everyone. 

We watched Cursed on Netflix. Really hoping for a second season as this one was mostly set up for the tale of the Lady of the Lake. It held my attention.

There is a new Muppet show entitled Muppets Now on Disney+. First episode gave me enough that I think that once they sort out the show, it will be a lot of fun.

There is baseball again. And the Mets are basically acting like the Mets if we had the entire season rather than this truncated version.

Okay I really need to get back to the project at hand.

Please stay safe, wear your mask, and I know I am cheering for you.

I am grateful for things that banish intrusive thoughts.

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