Monday Mental Health Check In Day 57 of the Homebound Saga
Posted By Kathleen David on May 11, 2020
May 11th, 2020
The last two weeks have been a bit of a challenge as I had done something to my back and I was in agony. I dealt with it for a week before seeing a Doctor and becoming a data point of negative for COVID 19 in the area.
Last week was mostly pain and more pain. I hate with a passion pain sweats where one breaks out in a cold sweat because the pain is overwhelming. I had a lot of incidents of that. I was miserable.
I babied my back and tried to figure out what I could do to minimize movement that aggravated it. Sleeping was difficult because it was hard to find a position I could relax and go to sleep. Then, while sleeping, I would flip and that would wake me up then back to finding a position again.
I was a mess and had to keep telling myself I was not failing my family because I was injured.
Sunday morning, I woke up and I could get up rather than spend half an hour trying to get out of bed slowly. It was amazing. I still felt a twinge, but I could move again. I got a lot done finally.
I felt like my brain came back online for the first time in a while. I was not focused on the pain and how to avoid it.
Pain can be very debilitating. It can be all consuming. It can hit a point where there is no pushing through or pushing through is just going to make things worse.
Mentally pain can beat you down and make you question everything you ever did.
I am going to take a Mulligan on last week and get back to the projects I have to do.
I am grateful for manageable pain.
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