Anyone still reading this?
Posted By Kathleen David on August 2, 2012
I think that is the longest (except when without Internet) I have not put an entry in my web log.
And honestly I can’t really give you a good reason why. I have had topics come and go in my head. I have been reading about things I wanted to comment on. I just couldn’t get the time together with the computer to do so.
I made some decisions about Shoreleave and DragonCon that I now have to make peace with. We will be at both and I am looking forward to seeing people and geeking out with the best of them.
It is less than 30 days to DragonCon and, honestly, I have next to nothing done for the art show other than a few some details sorted out. Thus I have nothing for the Shoreleave Art Show to show this year. Considering I started this sorting back in January, I am not very happy with myself right now.
I am trying to get my “mojo” back in working order since it seems to be stalled out. My creative brain has gone to sleep and that has made it hard to do things. Not feeling particularly creative is a new feeling for me and I don’t like it very much. Or may be my brain is being more creative than my hands which seem also to be stalled out. I am getting things done ONLY when the deadline is looming and that’s not where I want to be right now.
I got my DragonCon schedule for this year. I have approved the schedule and pretty much know where I am going to be when. I am not overloaded but I will say that if you want to find me, it is going to be mostly with the Puppetry Track, which is what I requested.
So to sum up, not feeling my best and not doing my best which annoys the heck out of me.
I keep telling myself that I am a creative person but right now I’m not as confident in it as I have been.
Today is all about getting ready for Shoreleave. I will start with the first things and work my way to the next thing until it is time to leave tomorrow.
I am grateful for those creative things that I have been able to do.
I wouldn’t beat myself up over it too much if I were you. As John Lennon was wont to say, “Life is what happens when you’re making other plans.” If stuff has been going on that prevents you from exercising that creativity within you…either by robbing you of time, or by robbing you of enthusiasm, or both…I’ve learned to not feel guilty about it. I just tell myself that this too shall pass and just ride it out. I don’t know if that will work for you, but it does for me, so I thought I’d share that.
I think most creative people have periods where it just doesn’t come easily…when that happens I think of John Cleese’s essay on creativity, how the brain keeps working on problems even when we think we’ve given up on it. Sometimes, after ditching a script in frustration, I come back to it a month later and the problems melt away like they never were and I can’t figure out how the answers were not obvious. Let it happen.